You are just amazing, 7abeebi, I can’t believe that this is happening, I’m dreaming right?? When you walked that door, I just wanted to jump and hug and never let go.

I can’t even believe that you stayed till after midnight to spend the first few minutes of the day of my birthday with me, no seriously, you were at my house on my birthday, right when the day started, ya rab, I wanna live like that forever.

Spending the day with you for the first time on my life was the best thing that ever happened to me in my whole life, walking next to you made me feel so safe, and proud.

It’s just wonderful how I slide my hands into yours like that, looking into your eyes while talking to me, am I dreaming, or you are really here? This must be heaven.

I was so scared that we won’t get comfortable around each other in person, but what happened was out of this world, it took us exactly 10 minutes to feel like we’ve been around each other for the past 2 years, god I just love you so much.

I felt different that day, I felt like I’m a different person, a batter person, just because you are with me, just by holding you I felt like I owned this world.

If god, if I’m dreaming don’t ever wake me up!

Amen

Furthermore, girls get crazy during their period time. Kick aside the hormones responsible for such a phenomenon, there are many other things contributing to this factor. This is the fact that we retain water and our uterus swells, making us seem slightly pregnant, or as we like to call it, fat. We clean and observe blood dripping from our genitals, which is a sight not for the faint-hearted, really. Like, oh my god, blood. Sigh. On a side note, girls piss me off sometimes when they can’t take the sight of blood, seeing as how bleeding once a month from a private orifice should prepare them for the sight and smell.

Next is, the cramps. Men who have never experienced such a phenomenon claim the fabled cramps do not exist. Let me tell you this, they do, they hurt and if we get bad cramps once a month, I think God was fair in giving you guys sensitive balls for us to kick when we hate you. This happens through a horribly painful contraction of the uterus, nerve receptors register the rapid contraction as A DULL PAIN which radiates through our spine and makes us capable of murder.

The lesser irritating aspect of cramps is the pimples. I am fortunate enough not to have ever suffered from an acne outbreak, but my fellow females, my heart goes out to you. I understand when I see a blotch on a face, a blemish that ef’s up the hard work and effort you put in to make yourself look flawless, and it all gets ruined by a painful, throbbing spot on the face. I HATE PERIODS.

THE MOST ANNOYING THING ABOUT PERIODS, HOWEVER, is the fact that you have to welcome them otherwise you’d be pregnant, which is the greater of two evils. So females have to look forward to this horrible, horrible affliction once a month, or be dealt with an even more horrible affliction of being a mother when you’re just not ready. So, this is a short excerpt on why I hate being female.

I think of spending every minute of every day with you and holding you so close to me. Whenever you think of me, please know that no matter how many miles separate us or how much of our lives comes between us, you are and always will be the love of my life and I will never love anyone as much.

I thank God everyday for letting me meet you and for you falling in love with me because I know that it would never be as perfect any other way. I love you with all that I am.

You show your love to me every day and even every minute when we are talking. How lucky I am to find a man like you. Thank God above us! I promise I will compensate you one day with the thing that you want the most … you know what it is?

All that I can offer you is a family. A family that belongs to us; a family where we can share our ups and down and stay together till the day we die. Honey, that’s all I can give … I hope you like it.

I really wish that you were near me, and when I needed help, you would appear and help me. I want to do the same for you too. However, knowing that you care about me so much is enough and if I can be your wife and your children’s mum then this would make me proud for the next 60 or 70 years. Remember, you need to take care of me for 60 or 70 years and so you’ve got to take good care of yourself to do it. Ti Amo tesoro mio, you’re the only one that I want.

I love you so dearly, sweetie. Do you know? You are the best thing that ever happened to me. You are like the best poetry ever composed, the best song ever played, the best picture ever painted. I never thought and expected that someone like me could get so lucky by finding you. How could I have known the comfort and the security of knowing that whenever I say “I love you,” you’re going to smile, knowing for sure that I love you so much.

I love you sweetie, more than my life… more than my world. You are my world. Life wouldn’t be life if not shared with you. We may be far away from each other for now, but you have my heart and my love. And I know that I have yours, too. It just feels so wonderful knowing and believing that. I love you… more and more each day.

As long as you are by my side, I know for sure that thing will be ok, I will be able to handle anything, I know things will go wrong sometimes, but I also know that there is nothing we can’t work together, o totally understand your doubt, when you get hurt once, it’s hard to believe that people can go though the toughest times when they want to.

I’m as scared as you, maybe a little more, but my love for you keeps me calm, I have faith in you, I know that things will be OK, I want to take care of you for the rest of my life, that’s the only thing I never doubt since I met you, is YOU!

I love you and I always will, never think that anything will change as long as I’m breathing.

How ironic.. when I wrote the first word the radio started playing your favorite song, my favorite song  “ya 7abeebi 3am salli, teb2a b 3omri t7alli, teslamli hal talleh, roo7 allah ye7meek” .

Wish you a wonder Eid, I wish that all your days will be Eid, I love you.

I know you will never read this, but I love loving you without you knowing about it, it’s that crazy? Maybe, but I love you more than my heart can take, and I have to say it on every single second of my life, cuz there is no second passes with me thinking about you, I believe that I live just to love you, you became the air I breath, you love runs in my veins, it’s in my blood, I LOVE YOU and I always will.

I’m counting days till you come back to me safe and sound.

Happy Eid 7abeebi.

It’s only 2 weeks, yeah?? Sounds so little time, but for me every hour is passing without hearing you voice is killing me, I wish I was there with you, will I be there with you one day?? Will I??

I hope you are having good times there, I know there is nothing in earth like putting him to sleep yourself, and waking up looking at his face the first thing in the morning, I’m so happy for you, I can’ be happier for you, but I still miss you, it’s so complicated to explain.

I’ll miss you like crazy till you come back, I know you don’t wanna come back and leave him there, I don’t want to leave him there as well, I wish you can bring him back, I can’t describe my feeling when I hear the happiness in your voice.

I’m praying for god every night to bless me and giving me the chance to be beside you to bring him back to you, to live happy as you deserve, to give me the chance to take care of you for the rest of my life, to live the way you’re suppose to be, like nobody else lives on this planet.

I love you, I miss you.

7abeebti, did u just call me that?? Oh my god, I feel like a teenager now, do I sound silly?? Cuz if I am, I don’t’ care, I can say out loud now, I’m in love, and I love you, I love you, I love you, I don’t have to hide it anymore.

I LOVE YOU…. You are 7abeebi

I know what you think “I’m over reacting, and I’m being a drama queen”, that’s exactly why I don’t talk to you about it, I laugh, and talk like nothing is going on, but the pain in my heart is killing me.

I hate it that I don’t trust you anymore, I hate to think that whenever you are not with me, you are differently talking to someone else, I don’t really know how am I suppose to react, I’m extremely confused, I knew that I’m not in your heart, I didn’t ask for it, I was happy that I’m a part of your life, but things got out of hands, and I fell in love.

I mean how could I not, why would share myself with you if I don’t love you, I saw a side of me that no one on this earth saw before, and I mean by that no one, you are different, what am I suppose to do? Act like it’s ok to see other people? I’m not in a competition, I don’t want to be, this is weird for me, and accepting it is even weirder!!

God, do I love you that much, I’ve never done that before, the second I feel that I’m insecure, I leave, and forever, why can’t I do it now?? I’m addicted, and you are my addiction, I’m refusing every single treatment there is, I just wanna be with you, hearing your voice is all I need.

I wish I can hate you, but I can’t.. you in my blood, hating myself is mush easier than hating you, I pray god every single night for you, not to heal me from my addiction, but to give me the strength to be able to deal with my love to you.

I love you, and I want you to be happy as always, I pray god for your happiness

I love with all my heart

Happy anniversary.. I will always love you, even if you don’t… I just do

 I wish I can take your pain away, hearing you crying was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to deal with in my entire life, it ripped my heart apart, you don’t deserve this, you are the purest person I’ve ever met, you are the best thing can happen to any girl on this earth, the love you have in your heart for him is indescribable.

I felt useless, I wish I can do something, I wish I can do anything, I wish he can stay, I want him to stay, your tears are so precious, I wish I was a little closer, I don’t’ want to be anything in your life, I know I don’t have that place for me in your heart, but I don’t care, I want you to be happy, I want to take care of you, and I want to take care of him, I want to make sure that nothing on this planet will hurt you or him ever again.

When we finished that call, I burst into tears, I was chocking, god!! How can I take this pain away?? How can help you to be happy again? I wish I can.. I wish I can….

I hate her for what she did to you, I hate her for destroying your family, I hate her the most for the scar she left in your heart, for the pain she is causing you, did she hear you telling him stories before bed? Did she see him how he runs to you whenever you pich him up from school to give you the biggest hug and kiss any father can have? Did she hear see you reading Quran on his head before he falls asleep? Did she watch you cooking for him when you come back from work extremely tiered? Does she know what a wonderful father you are? Did she ever heard him say “I love you daddy”? I hate her, I hate her from the bottom of my heart.

God… I’ve never been so emotional in my life, I can’t believe myself how much I love you.. I would do anything to make you happy, even if it will cost my life for it, I want you to be happy again, I pray for god to bring back happiness to you life every single day..

I love you…

My lips clutter because my love is so strong, and the words that I want to say just won’t be said. Sometimes I want to open up to you and tell you how I feel – I guess I am too scared to open up and be real.

7abeebi, I love you, and know that I will always have hidden feelings for you.

I love you, Baby.

You can never know  how the sound of your sweet voice sends chills of pleasure down my spine. 

You can never know how I long to touch you, to feel your skin under my finger tips. 

You can never know how inviting your lips and eyes are to my own. 

You can never know the soft cries of my heart as it yearns to tell you what you must not hear.

 You’ll never know my softness

You’ll never touch my hand

You’ll never feel the love of my heart. 

But like a thief creeping out into the night, you slipped into my soul and have stolen my heart.

But you can never know.

I mean someone who gives you a great love and more, someone who could relief your pain just by a nice touch, who’s liable of making you forget all your sadness by a lovely smile.. someone who you would hold with both hands and play with his hair each time he wants to feel warm and safe.

It’s just great when you find him among everyone and keep looking at him and watch his moves, you’ll feel perfect when he is around…

Just around…

I mean I’m there, so close, every day, I listen to your voice, hear you lovely laugh, but I still can’t have you!!! It’s some kind of big desire within me to hold you in my hands, but I can’t, maybe I should’ve been away to be able to touch your feelings one day, but for someone totally in love with you, it’s enough for me to be around, just around, loving you the hard way…AWAY!!